State of mind

I'm lost ,
Lost in the wickedness
Lost in the dreams that my ancestors built for us
Lost in the scream of the silent pure night
Frozen by timeless stories
About the world and a path I should follow
Nobody knows where I am but I
Nobody noticed that I died

I tried to find the path , shallow
I slept and I fell down to the end
An angel saves me on an on
And then she lifts me to the sky
I fall again , again I die
I try to understand
Why ...
Why does it have to be that way
That no one knows that u have died
But all remember that u tried

And failed u have ... u fell
They say
Why does it have to be this way
That she's not holding up there
Why does she throws u down instead ?

The angel knows , I asked , said to my self
Left in the depth of the ground
Where even thoughs make no sound
No sound to hear , no lights to see
In there I find myself , it's only me ...

The angels are unconstient beings
They do not know
They dream of us like we dream of them